lulu

2010-07-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

Starry2night.tumblr.com

Fpppsz

2010-07-26T22:35:00.004+08:00

I think the term good-byes should be changed to bad-byes. Some "goodbyes" are no good at all. They're no good..

Well if life works like some kinda mp3 then i'd probably pick a few of my favourite songs and put the mp3 on repeat mode. But i'm afraid it doesn't.

If there was one thing i could do for you now, i guess this is the best i could do..
Don't think it's a matter of want or can anymore. It's become a must and will.

I don't like that life's so realistic but it is sadly.

And before it all ends tonight, could i just say one last thing?

(love you)

2010-07-23T21:23:00.002+08:00

Reality check:

As easily as you could light a candle up, as easily you could blow it out.

2010-07-16T20:24:00.002+08:00

Hi, may i have a pflnsth?

2010-07-14T22:35:00.002+08:00

can you hear me?
do you?

all amounts to nothing in the end

2010-07-11T21:34:00.003+08:00

i've .. got much to say.
but i can't find the right place to dump all my words.

and if a picture= a thousand words.
then i'd probably have 100 pictures.

that'll be fine, i think?

Not sad

2010-07-06T21:58:00.005+08:00

Yknow, not all sad faces look like that..

i don't wish for stuff like i used to anymore.

instead, i have 2 very simple wishes.

( )

i hope it's not too much to ask for, is it?

Dancing Queen

2010-07-04T23:30:00.001+08:00

"You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life.."

actress

2010-06-30T22:26:00.002+08:00

Stay away?

i got it.

Maybe

2010-06-27T19:17:00.003+08:00

I guess there's something we all must understand.
When we want to sun to shine, it does not neccessarily mean it will happen.
Instead, we might get the rain.
Then maybe we should open our eyes and learn to look at the rain in a different perspective and realise it isn't so bad afterall.
And maybe at the same time, hope for the sun to shine again.
And maybe, maybe the sun will shine again someday.

Well, i hope so...

.
.
.
.
.

Or perhaps, the sun has found a different flower to shine on and ain't coming back.
Oh well.

never more than 5

2010-06-21T22:02:00.003+08:00

"Send me a blank message when you don't know what you're feeling."

No it don't break even

2010-06-03T20:34:00.003+08:00

Feels like..

A little girl held an ice cream cone in her hand. After she took a bite, a boy came charging towards her. He snatched her ice cream and threw it on the floor.

He didn't stay. And didn't stop running.

The funniest thing? He was the same boy who gave the little girl the ice cream cone.

So what happened to that little girl? I'm not sure.

2010-06-02T19:00:00.003+08:00

Dandelion asked her friend Sunflower: You don't bloom beautifully these days anymore. Why?
Sunflower: Well, i'm not sure. It seems like Mr.Sun doesn't want to shine on me no more.

2010-05-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

i wouldn't usually say this but.

so fucking tired..........

2010-05-19T21:12:00.002+08:00

What should i say? What can i say?

It's your mouths and i can't stop it from rambling.
It's your lives and i can't help it if that's the way you wanna live it.

Let's just hope one day you'll get a taste of your own medicine Or maybe just hope your mouth rots.

I really wonder, what kind of pleasure do you get from it?
Well, you know best.

Got more to say? Go ahead~

2010-05-18T19:11:00.000+08:00

don't be a sucker.

2010-05-08T20:06:00.003+08:00

VERY LAME :

Me : Eh i wonder why ...
Buddy : Ya i wonder why too..
Me : Ok lor we become wonder girls :D

Hahaha whatta dumb conversation.

--

there's probably 3 reasons for what's going on in my head:

1) I'm hopeful and i believe.
2) I'm too naive.
3) I must be stupid.

I'm praying hard it's option 1.
I'm praying hard..

2010-05-07T20:26:00.000+08:00

Cramping up inside, that's what i'm doing.........................................................

2010-05-03T14:39:00.002+08:00

So maybe it's the weather. I hope it's just the weather. I hope it's just the weather.

.
.
.

Oh well, i know it's not.

What's on your mind?
i said : you.

Heartbeat

2010-04-12T20:14:00.002+08:00

should've known since then.
in fact, i knew.

but hey, suck it all in.
i'm sure you can do much better than this.

--

empty space

2010-04-07T22:27:00.003+08:00

i need to ..

sing the day away tmrw.

LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

so won't you sing with me?

won't you sing for me?

take a look at me now

2010-04-06T21:18:00.001+08:00

hello hello my brightest star, tonight you seem so very very far away...

and there's so so much i need to tell you.

2010-03-24T21:09:00.002+08:00

Yes, oh yes you are a real lucky girl:)

Happy birthday

2010-03-18T22:09:00.003+08:00

you'll be fine.

you'll be okay.

you'll be happyyyyyyyyy.

for on a special day where they say wishes come true, i'll wish.

i'll wish, happy, for you.

---

2010-03-18T21:16:00.003+08:00

I'm ...

back from camp!! Kinda had a good time there with so many jokers, esp the f&b dep. Know they won't see this but thank you thank you!! Thank everybody~ Sucks but gotta admit ob ct damn entertaining HA HA HA.
Got 3 days left, much to do. Hope time will pass slower for the next few days and just make everything go slower.

tough cookie, you can do it! Jia you jia you!~
:D

2010-03-12T19:27:00.003+08:00

today me and the girls went to 36 divided by 2 :D too bad no place called 18x2 (inside joke)
sort of like a celebration cum for fun eating outing thing. woah funny the whole day :D we all don't know how to follow instructions and cannot find the toilet. we call each other lame when we ourselves damn lame. pot calling kettle black lol.

ytd me and buddy like 2 idiots laughing at hamburger in class bout the 15 min thing. stuuuuupid man. buddy really quite retarded ah :O hahah

so ytd plus today's laughing, i think lost about 5 kg!!!

man, busy week up ahead up ahead!!

i hope sunday's a good(great) day. outta be coooooooooooolszx. 8D

that's all, bye!

2010-03-04T18:04:00.002+08:00

Star oh star, where are you where are you?

2010-02-26T21:21:00.002+08:00

today was a funny day.
Thanks to plastic who thought me the new high song :

Listen to my heart beat ~

So i taught her math and we had a lame time together.
Ytd me and buddy accidentally printed 311 pieces of mindmaps until today at fnn it was still printing. Mad.
Busy weeked up ahead.

I don't really if i believe in the wrong things sometimes but i'll go ahead anyway.

that's it, bye!

Terrified

2010-02-25T20:41:00.002+08:00

must have been outta my damn mind.

but everything'll be okay, everything'll be okay.

today Amalia is no sad girl.

and she says everything'll be okay.

Hor buddy? :) Our new best friend is CT.
Later we will go make friends with O's.

Try again

2010-02-12T20:44:00.003+08:00

It's okay as long as i've given my best.
:)

2010-02-11T21:02:00.004+08:00

they're smiling their best, their happiest.

Sun

2010-02-08T21:03:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry, my star.
I am so very sorry.

100%

2010-02-07T13:20:00.004+08:00

Keep going lia, keep going.

runs too deep

2010-01-31T11:34:00.002+08:00

Realised i haven't been posting long posts until i forgot how to already. Haha

Anyway, three main things :

Yesterday was a good-o-fun day. (apollo centre lol)
Saw 2 angmoh guys kissing yesterday at uniqlo then :O Freak out!

Today should be fine.
Let's hope tmrw gets better.

--

wonder what's worse?
so close, so far? or just far far far?

contented

2010-01-20T20:22:00.001+08:00

That would do.
that would do.
that would do.

2010-01-14T19:54:00.002+08:00

cause we're living in a world of fools ~

if i'm doing it then i'm doing it well.

2010-01-08T22:11:00.001+08:00

i'll be there, on deck 12, some time.

-

what do they know?

mr sun

2010-01-04T21:31:00.003+08:00

All i want is to see your face light up, again and again and again.

should be where you can't see me

2009-12-29T20:50:00.004+08:00

So overcame a fear today, sorta. Thanks to SBS for your encouragement! Need much more next year, hais. Plus i still owe you 9K. Hahah, i think i owe you much more actually.

Thinking about my time in India.
Guess when you're in foreign land alone, the one you think about most is the one you rely on most.

Like what Ms lam said, end the year nicely, with thanks and all. New year, new start? Maybe everything else but that.

--

The heart has reasons that reason does not understand.

2009-12-27T19:20:00.002+08:00

Why in the world do i like to get myself into shit. Hais.

Wonder why there are such horrible monsters on earth as well, so good at pissing others off.
Monster, monster, monster, please leave me alone leh!!! Zzz.

Buddy and me are on mission tmrw, hopefully can complete 'it' by Wednesday hahaha.

--

things that are most precious cannot be sold or bought.
they're not supposed to cost a thing but there's a price to pay.

and every night, there's this fat little girl who wishes for wishes that won't come true.
you remember her?

Pretend

2009-12-24T13:14:00.002+08:00

easy for strangers to become friends.
not so easy for friends to become strangers.

2009-12-19T20:04:00.003+08:00

I hate the weekends, i do nothing but rot and talk to walls.

realised i was just dreaming ~
dreaming something that didn't belong to me.

need to find a new remedy.

2009-12-18T20:57:00.002+08:00

Stop pissing the hell outta me!!
No buddy = cannot complain = vvvvvvvvvvv frustrated!!!

Aiya just go to sleep la -.-

2009-12-18T16:28:00.003+08:00

i say endure.

2009-12-16T22:21:00.002+08:00

So SG with the girls today. The chicken very shiok. Then went to the arcade and we almost did .. Para para! Almost, hahahha. Then i keep disturbing Buddy like shit, until i cannot stop laughing. Had to walk out of the shop cause too malu already. Now we know what she wants for christmas!! Hohoho :D (Buddy if you see this hor, don't act shy la :D )
Okay down with 13, 3 more to go!! I must be crazy, starting to get hooked on drama again haha. Watch until i also kuku liao hahaha. Haven't finished my math!
Okay tmrw sectionals then band again. I really like the hero song. Can give people goosebumps.
Back to school soon.

Okay bye!

2009-12-11T13:13:00.002+08:00

Dinner with some of the band people then we go watch Tjc concert. Haha went swimming just now. The rash has subsided, sorta. But when i was swimming suddenly very itchy. I hope i don't have lice in my hair :O Cause it feels that way. Eee.

So me and zero went to check out the SG prices and :O!!! They have student meals. Coooool !!11.30 to 4?!? Then she down there jumping for joy already la. Haha.
2 more weeks then back to school. Don't know how come i so excited -.- But very sian, cause Buddy got competition starting week 2 then i very lonely. HAHAHA. But one person has to stay behind to take notes lor, sad. From primary school i'm always the one staying. Aiya nevermind la :D

Suddenly i feel like going on a bus in India then sing and dance manzsx. Yo Plastic you seeing this?!?! (we haven't even memorise the lyrics. lol) Singapore and India bus different la. There have free jerks there. hahaha.

bye!

2009-12-09T22:56:00.004+08:00

if such, i'd lie.

2009-12-09T22:34:00.002+08:00

1000 question marks in Amalia's head now.
ZZZ.

2009-12-07T11:21:00.003+08:00

Was practising "Legend of the Ancient Hero" Then suddenly ...

I felt like i'm some hero. HAHAHA stupid -.-

Eh it gets damn frustrating everytime the pains come. But fear not! I have my bitter-sour medicine now(yuck) , hopefully will help.
Will probably watch old moon later. Then go for tuition and idk what.

Tmrw there's band, Wednesday - half blank. Thursday band again. Friday afternoon blank - at night tjc concert. Saturday and sunday - blank, see doctor. December's going to end liao and i hardly did anything :O
Think i am damn stupid. Always last minute then panic.
I also don't know why my life seems like a repeating cycle. Every year around the same time, i feel about the same thing. This year's different but still the same. I don't know.

bye!

bored

2009-12-05T17:35:00.002+08:00

50 years down the road .. where would i be?
would you still be anywhere near?

Aiya who knows tmrw i die liao.
HAHAH.

Tmrw i can tell buddy my new plan :D

2009-12-05T16:29:00.003+08:00

i feel like having steamed crabs now :O Yum yum yummy ~

Ikea 09

2009-12-04T11:24:00.003+08:00

Ikea this year kinda different from last year's. We spent more time talking than taking photos. W wore her feather thingy and i was quite shocked to see it. Then she still can come and tell me, '' I know its very gl la, but i like it. '' Haha i still can ask what is gl -.-

But the woman selling hotdogs told her it was cute. Dang!

Actually i'm in a hurry cause i gotta go out soon. Going for sale and lunch. Wooooo!

Okay so bye!

fpppsz

2009-12-04T10:54:00.005+08:00

finally feel more at ease with myself today.

yes i am a stubborn, naive and silly person.
it's been so long and maybe longer is on its way.
but i guess it's time i snap out of this and at least try standing up.

for me and for you.

know it's not easy, it never was.
but still. Aye.

> some things i don't know how to put into words but i hope you still can feel them. okay?

--

2009-12-02T19:42:00.002+08:00

butterflies in my stomach. and they're flying all over the place.

First time

2009-12-02T10:41:00.005+08:00

Felt like the weather yesterday.

Phew. Today's a new day.
Out with C and W later. Gonna have a bunch of fun, like always.
Haha after a year, we're back to the same place.
Cause we're very cheapskate. (HAHAHA)

---

you came along just like a song, and brightened my day ~
but i guess like everything else, a song has its end too..

dream

2009-11-29T13:13:00.000+08:00

carousel.

i would like to ride on one now.

with you.

2009-11-28T19:11:00.005+08:00

---

So there are the pictures.

2009-11-28T17:56:00.003+08:00

i'm back i'm back i'm back!!

And it feels absolutely great to be back. :D

Haha should have posted this a week ago ya.

Er i would say facebook makes me damn sick.

or shall i say some people make me damn sick.

Out to drive me up the wall -.-

Anyway! Super fast, Nov gonna end.

Better make use of my time properly or i'm gonna start pulling my hair out next year. Maybe i'll blog about the trip next time. Maybe la haha. Quite an eye opener.

As for other things, one step at a time?

Yeah, that's all.

Bye!

2009-11-15T20:22:00.003+08:00

take it as it comes.
don't run, don't hide.

--

i think blogging's no good for me cause it makes me think a lot.
much more than i should.

but i think today's balloon thing was darn fun though.
HAHA.
Conclusion after Toys R us is .. Buddy's a pervert.
(She apparently has a crush on Patrick :O )
HAHAHA.

i'm off, i'm off ! (tmrw)

Bye!

2009-11-12T20:59:00.003+08:00

Argh.

fool to let you slip away

2009-11-10T20:08:00.001+08:00

Have been a mad busy woman lately.

Actually i don't like it but i like it. Haha.

Hope nothing bad happens when i'm away. Two friends have been telling me how scary the holidays are -.-

Today i looked at the sky and thought .. '' Maybe things are gonna get better.

You'll never know.

Like the wind, it won't come back.

Indeed, i was an utter fool.

thoughts

2009-10-31T21:17:00.002+08:00

I think sometimes people shouldn't be too kind. Or else others will climb over your head, right? I guess i can understand how a ______ feels like now. ZZZ. The weird thing is, i actually really sit down and spend time worrying and thinking of ways to make things better. Crazy.

No time to fall sick now.

I've got nothing to prove to you.

But plenty for myself.

Lastly, i'm damn looking forward to our EOY dinner yo!!
:D

2009-10-26T19:45:00.002+08:00

Wednesday - Food Hunt!!

Chicken rice shioooooooooook. Hahah not sure if can take photos cause my nenepok buddy camera shy lor!?!??!

hahah.

Fail, fail, fail.

i think my humanities overall fail. -.-

Nevermind! Try harder. Go go go!

Anyway, there's a big question mark in my head.

ZZZ.

maybe we're just like the railway tracks.

2009-10-24T19:15:00.000+08:00

maybe some things just aren't so forgettable.

2009-10-23T19:36:00.004+08:00

Better to be forgotten?
Better to forget?

I'd rather be forgotten.

--

Take a deep breath and ..

Fight, fight, fight.

Cause many things are gonna come your way so please be strong.
Chin up cause life is short.
The best you can do is give it your best shot.

Ya?
:)

2009-10-21T20:59:00.003+08:00

must be crazy.

i feel ...

happy.sad.funny.excited.scared.thankful.dreamy.afraid.silly.nervous..

CRAZY !!!

Tiny

2009-10-12T20:28:00.003+08:00

certain things, aren't for me to decide.

i wonder if just a teeny weeny bit of hope will hurt?
i guess so.

school's okay. exams okay. okay okay okay.
sounds boring eh?

somedays i feel funny(sad) and wish i was on the flight to india alr.
you see, it's like running away from problems.
LOL.
but they always say be careful what you wish for :O
so maybe i take that wish back. Haha.

quite screwed for tmrw's A math and Geog.
but i'm still here. refuse to touch any books leh.

well i'm glad you and her are doing okay.
me and him doing fine too k? :)
except for the fact he's turning blacker around the cheeks. Haha.
matter of fact, we both miss you two very much.

or is it mostly me :/

Hide

2009-10-09T17:50:00.002+08:00

If all else fails, eat 10000 creampuffs.

2009-09-27T21:43:00.002+08:00

what i hope for you is much more than the wishes i make.

nonono, i'm not afraid of hope no more.
because i need hope to bring you happiness.

:)

Answers

2009-09-27T21:27:00.004+08:00

'' When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. ''

By Helen Keller

_________________

" My fingers feel like hotdogs ''

By my buddy.
HAHAHA.

leave it up to fate.

2009-09-25T18:10:00.002+08:00

run out of solutions.

Flip a coin to decide your fate.

2009-09-24T16:22:00.002+08:00

" The pain of parting is nothing to the joy of meeting again. "

- Charles Dickens

So, what if you never meet again?

---

If i told you i've found a solution, would you trust me?

Smile

2009-09-14T16:56:00.004+08:00

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile with your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile.

i want you to smile.

smile nice and wide, smile like you used to.

even if i'm not the reason for them anymore.

2009-09-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

sometimes you don't have to try all the brands to know which's best for you.

you just know.

...

Aye.

2009-09-11T15:28:00.002+08:00

if i'm going to do this, i'm going to do it well.
i'll give it my best.
i'll give you my best.

/

2009-09-10T20:11:00.003+08:00

i'm not a fortune teller. but i see what's going to happen.

2009-09-09T13:22:00.002+08:00

Like an illness.
Like cancer.
Like many relapses, with no guarantee of 2 words.

- Fully cured -

2009-09-08T22:01:00.003+08:00

i swear this drives me crazy.

i'm supposed to feel happy right?

but god, who in the world in the right state of mind would feel happy?

well, maybe,

me.

everybody's trying.

they're all doing something.

Lia, then what are you doing?

i play our forbidden game.

yknow?

at the end of the day, i know i'll lose.

useless, i know.

but sorry, doesn't change anything.

2009-09-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

Lia, you very naive.

i think you really are a big joke.

:(

Time

2009-09-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

when i feel like shit, i tell myself the same thing over.
and realise maybe it's not so bad.

yeah, i've been keeping to promise:)

i say time does a great deal.

it drifts people apart.
time brings people closer together.

time gives people a chance to grow feelings.
yet, it can make the same people lose all their feelings over time.

time heals wounds.
time gives you time to accept, forgive.

time's hard to kill when you're bored.
yet it's never enough when fun's around.

time passes quick when you're asleep.
but it's eternity when you can't get to sleep.

time,time,time.

well, i believe,
time will reveal.

so in time to come,
i'll see the truth.

now, hope and pray.

you may think i'm silly,
but maybe not so.

:)

2009-09-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

was looking back at my old posts this year.

realised i haven't been posting happy happy stuff lately.
haha. maybe cause i don't feel so much of real happy recently.

before july, were real good happy months.

--

got a weird feeling now.
and it's scaring the hell outta me.

2009-09-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

just realised how lazy i am to change the skin or the link or anything.

i suddenly have ten thousand new things on my wish list.
but it's true,
as long as you strive hard for something you want, you'll get it.
provided you strive for the things which have no reply.

well, love has a reply.

haha.

i broke my promise today.
tsk.

So hello, please promise to keep to your OWN promise!!

well if i've got one wish which would come true,

i'd wish __________________________________________________

:)

---

it's like cancer.
never know when the relapses'll come.

2009-09-03T16:41:00.001+08:00

delete the blog delete the blog!

2009-09-01T12:12:00.000+08:00

there's just no one who gets me like you do.

2009-08-31T22:15:00.000+08:00

that's when i love you.
no matter what.

2009-08-31T21:13:00.001+08:00

secret.

2009-08-30T11:12:00.000+08:00

Don't hope.
Cause with hope, comes disappointment.

i'll take my shots when i'm strong enough.
when i know i can bear the shit later.

2009-08-24T16:16:00.001+08:00

strength's gone to hide somewhere again.

loss's catching up.

2009-08-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

don't know why.
everything seems bearable till when i talk to him at night.
everynight.

2009-08-20T19:14:00.003+08:00

can't start cause i won't stop.

i asked Lia.
where's Strength gone to?

she said he's gone into hiding, she's trying to look for him.
he went into hiding cause he's afraid to face Loss.

--

So one day Lia found Strength under the sofa.
she asked him, '' Do you know i've been looking for you? Why're so afraid of Loss? ''

Strength replied, '' Loss took everything from me the other day, even my dearest, Love. ''

So Lia said, '' Since you don't have anymore for him to take, why're so scared? ''

Strength said,'' I still have two things, my strength and the love Love showered me with.
That's what keeps me going on. I'm afraid he'll take them away from me.''

--

i don't know how but i don't have a choice.

2009-08-19T19:41:00.000+08:00

don't hurt my fbb.
that's all i ask for.

2009-08-18T19:15:00.001+08:00

i'll take Bzz with me.
we'll go somewhere.

--

2009-08-17T21:14:00.001+08:00

well maybe.

oh shucks i'm pressed for time.

i can't hold out longer than minutes really.
i'll lose horribly at that game yeah.

aye. just don't be disappointed in me.

P's been a good girl.
she has.
forgive her k?

2009-08-15T19:06:00.000+08:00

had a good maybe great time today.
:)
oh we've got one new person to our goal!

--

we all expect some reaction from someone else when we do something.
well, maybe sometimes we don't always get the expected.
well maybe i'll go wrong.

--

2009-08-14T22:37:00.001+08:00

guess i don't deserve one goodbye.

--

now when the fat girls needs her ice cream,
the fat delivery boy'd never come around with it again.
he won't give her anymore ice cream, he thinks it's bad for her.
but it isn't.
it's not.

--

i was thinking bout if we could turn back time and relive one moment?
maybe i'd choose to be on the carousel.

one deep breath

2009-08-11T19:23:00.000+08:00

maybe misery serves as motivation today.
maybe it'll turn and eat me up tmrw.
i'll never know.

but at least i could try.
and i know you'd be proud of me :)

2009-08-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

maybe in the past, i'd wish for loads of money.
i'd wish for a smarter brain.
i'd wish i wasn't so lazy.
i'd wish i was happier or for things i didn't really need.

but if i was given one wish now,
i know what i'd really wish for.
i'd wish for what you would wish for too.

--

i saw two people along orchard road.
they were marched hand in hand and cheered their favourite cheer.
i saw two happy people.
two genuinely happy people.

--

they say look at what i was given, and not what was taken away.
but, how do i?

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2009-08-05T19:45:00.000+08:00

my only one.

2009-08-02T19:26:00.003+08:00

Love is patient, love is kind.
Love does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude,it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered; it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It is not irritable or resentful.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres.
Love never fails.

2009-08-02T10:55:00.002+08:00

i've spent a long, long time deluding myself.
i should've seen it better since then.

it's the same cycle i see now.
it's the same cycle i thought i wouldn't see.

so it follows a pattern.
then i know what comes next...